So today I refused to weigh myself, and I'm restricting to only liquids for two days. Hopefully that'll balance out the two days I ate like a lion. Travis and I went to Asheville Saturday and instead of buying trinkets we ate. And ate. And ate somemore. I'm over food, even though I am proud of myself for not purging. I was not happy to see a pouched out tummy this AM. I'm not going to get anymore addys until 11-28!! Ugh!! My energy level is at 0! I wonder if my iron is low. I can't pinpoint any other reason. I've been eating! The past 2 days I must have consumed like 10,000 calories. Seriously...
My mind has been completely blank. Thoughts escape me. I'm in robot Mandy mode. I had a girl at work comment on my lack of bubbliness. Do I HAVE to be bubbly all the time?!?! Jeeeez!! I don't feel like smiling. I don't feel like laughing. I don't want to be fake anymore. I'm so over that...
I have wrote 4 chapters in book #1 and got some great material lined up for book #2!
I bought the baby shower invites for my sisters baby shower that I'm hosting. I love being a hostess!! It seems like I'm conserving my energy for that. My scene. I'm an actress. I live for the part. Recently at work and at home I can't play that role. Bubbly energetic Mandy. The happy manager/sister/friend/wife.
I need to go back to the gym. Regularly that is. Find a new way to get energy other than with a pill. I'm out of shape. I can tell in my thighs. Buldgy fat blobs that clunk together if I knock my knees together. Gross...
Pictures coming soon! I'm a little nervous to post pics. I really need the feed back though. Honest critisism. I'm counting on u mystery readers!
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