Monday, January 3, 2011

Brighter

10pm makes me a crazed animal. Hand in the bag of veggie chips, I go blank. Blankly staring at the refridgerator. Travis comes down stairs and I snap out of it. Quickly folding the bag up and throwing it in the cabinet. I have no clue how many calories I had just then consumed. For dinner I had green beans 80 calories.
this morning 111.
I think I'll be able to break that by the weekend. My 00 are coming soon in the mail from express. I'm excited to see how they fit. It'll be either a great day or Dooms day.
Work has kept me occupied. My ADD in full force.
I worked 11 hours yesterday. I came home and redecorated the house. Anything to keep moving. If I sit I'll eat. If I sit I'll gain weight. Sitting has become a reward. Sleep though has been non existent. I toss and turn. Kick the covers. Pull the covers. Toss. Turn. I wake up frustrated and Angry.
Today I'm feeling confidant. Today I think I can do this. This being the weight and not lose my mind at work.

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